SUA man never enter someone's life if you're planning to leave it.


Already in a fucking bad mood and i thought a day out with you would change that but fuck. How would i know cher would be sick all of a sudden, i cant predict the fucking future right. I know you wanna cheer josh dey'll on but fuck man if you really dun feel like going then tell me la, its not like the first time. I have and always remember that time when you pangseh-ed jj me n shannon at the airport to go find that alex and well kinda use to it le bah fuck. Help me also help until so bu gan yan fuck forget it la then. Honestly i think it is the fucking final straw liao man. I wonder why why i keep closing my eyes giving you chance after chance man fuck. i dont give a shit liao la. I've been wanting to say that for whole lot the past few months liao but i ren, caused i cared about you. And maybe your post that time made me think why i actually did. Well i think now it seems fruitless to care for someone to don't give a shit back so forget it sia. Fuck after time and again cant take it le la -.- Thought today talking to you f2f might lighten my mood as i can speak my mind about all the things which are falling apart around me but i guess you watching your classes matches more important bah. Fine nvm. FUCK man honestly not going to anything liao. Whether this gets settled or not i seriously dun care liao. Fuck every single time sth goes wrong i'd try to settle it but fuck man forget it la. I know you still healing from that alex thing but i seriously dont care liao. If this is how it's gonna end then well. SUA. I guess my worst dreams confirmed bah. Don't ever enter anyone's life if you are planning to leave it. Time and again after every sorry you said i thought you actually meant it, and thought things go wrong from time to time. But nvm forget it la. I hate putting myself out there to get hurt for someone for nothing at all. Hate being taken for granted. Hate it when i go out there and help people and....... fuck FUCK. And this is what i've been meaning to say for quite some time, thanks for acting like you cared, maybe this is a chance for you to stop cause clearly you don't seem to be a good actor. kinda predicted this day would come and well it did. But surprisingly it's after you 2 broke up. Maybe it's just not him, but who gives a shit, i doubt u. And for the last time, i didn't like you. I have no idea why i said it that night and it seems whatever it was, i tried to explain but well i doubt u get it. wtv. And seeing how you respond to it today, wtf man. I have no idea why our friendship is more fragile than i thought.


These words for angst though i might regret saying some and do not mean some, i really feel that way now. Pissed. FUCK this shit i'm out

today which was a monday was whan our maths teacher anouced the test result
although we could not get the papers back , whe annouced the pupils which recieved full marks and those which get 1 marks minus off
i was desipointed for not getting any one of the both as i usuakky get a* for my maths
i regretted not revising hard enough and playin too much computer
i will work to complete the school value ABLITY TO SUCCED by trying harder by playin lesser compueter games and revising everyday by myself over the lessons thought on that day.

i woke up bright and early last saturday for ncc (sea).
although i did not want to go ncc (sea), and wanted to go to band..
i cound not change my cci tought ncc(sea) was about marching nd all that but i was wroung
ncc(sea) was very fun and i learnt that we must work todgether to avoid getting puishment for everyone. time flew and b4 i knew it it was 12.30 already. i look forward to the next training and also look forward to the kayaing lesson come with ncc(sea)

wing leng

today is the day that all will remember that i breated my new blog
hahax XD
chinese had to do heap of correction for chinese spelling
other lesson was juz fine with the exeptuon of maths with 1 question halfway done -.-"
hope to find out my CCA soon .